Today I'm vaguely worried I am an alcoholic. I am desperate for a beer, I think it's the knowing I can't have it that makes me want it, I've never craved beer so much before! Appetite has gone completely, the only thing I wanted today was a McDonalds vanilla milkshake, and when I got there the machine was broken.
I've been trying to find out things I can and cannot do (ignoring the fact I am knackered, and don't particularly want to do anything). A list of things I have accidentally done (before knowing!) this month include:
- Go Ape! Technically they allow pregnant people to do the course, but warn it's not going to be the safest thing in the world.
- Snowboarding. Quite clearly off the menu, oops.
- Eaten sushi. The jury is out on this one, I'm inclined to believe it's the "insane Mum posse" saying no on this, Japanese women eat it and that all goes fine.
- Drunk. Not a lot, I think the most was a bottle of wine in a night, but still, at a bit of a critical time.
To console myself I thought I'd have a nice hot bath and read a book. I'm from the school of thought that a bath isn't a bath if you don't turn into a lobster, sadly this is now also out. Lying in a barely-warmer-than-me bath, I realised I'd left the window open. An ice cold breeze when having a thermidor style bath is one thing, but it was certainly not pleasent in the lukewarm bath.
Also, today boob pain started to hit. Why oh why do these symptoms start so early? I won't need to produce milk for 7.5 months, why does the body start preparing now? Cramping is a thing of the past though...I hope.
Small panic in work when discussing the "meanings" of people's names, and a co-worker announces "you're having a baby, let's name it". Thankfully face was pointed at the screen so I don't think there was any "Wtf? How do you know?" expression spotted.
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